Love, Life And (Right in the middle of it all…) ME!

I sit on my favourite seat, beside a full size window (with a pretty panoramic view of the sky), with my current favourite read-“EAT PRAY LOVE” by Elizabeth Gilbert. While reading, I keep the book down. And I think. I think about relationships-Love and Friendship, to be precise. This pretty clear flashback runs through my mind’s eye, and I realize so many moments, so many relationships I’ve left unnoticed. I’ve lost so much, and I didn’t even know. Or rather, didn’t care.

It’s so crazy that at most times in one’s life, one gets so selfish, that he doesn’t give a rat’s ass about what’s really important. And then, at a different phase of your life, you turn back searching for lost moments and dreams, and among the dust covered memories, you find those people-those people who sincerely cared for you (And you didn’t!). And you wish you’d spent more time with them, given them the time they deserved. That’s one side of friendship.

When you think how many of your friends ARE your friends, what answer do you give yourself? Personally, I’ve got no idea. All I know is that there are people who I’ve shared many a great moments with. Then again, those moments needn’t have been that significantly important to them as well, right? So, a piece of advice-Don’t think too much in that direction! (‘Coz you’re finally going to reach a point when you throw your hands up in the air. And say-“Boy! I’m all alone, am I not?”)

I’ve had a lot of friends in this short 22 year long life of mine, and so I’ve made a lot many mistakes as well. A problem I had was that I had a difficulty in accepting the well known act that there are bad people in this world. This led me to believe that everyone wanted the best for me, which in turn obviously led to devastating after-effects. Choose every single friend wisely, ‘coz every single drop matters in this puddle.

LOVE- (too small a word for such a big feeling!) Like every teen of my age, it all started when the hormones started to kick in and I had a series of endless infatuations, crushes, and so on. It took me two slaps (metamorphic ones FYI!) to know that love at first sight, is pure fiction. But here, where I stand at this moment, I have a pretty clear (and somewhat conflictive) definition of Love. Not the present day modern time one-nighters Love, but the kind of Love that makes you want to wake up seeing the same beautiful face for the rest of what’s left of your life- The kind of Love that starts with one person, and ends at that same person.

First of all, for all the filmi girls and boys (like myself), a good news- Love is all that you’ve always wanted. But, as the flip side, it so happens that Love is also all that you’ve never wanted! Love can mean romance, understanding, candle light dinners, bouquet of roses, twilight (the Edward-Bella kind…or the Jacob-Bella kind…OR the Sam-Elizabeth kind), the three words (I Love You!), warm hugs, shoulder to cry on, a hand that keeps us going, and a lot of dreams shared and put together. But, the same Love can also mean fights, tears, heartbreaks, unbearable pain, sacrifice, and letting go, lonely days curled up on the floor beside your bed, long sleepless thoughtful nights, ego clashes, apologies, and other nightmarish feelings. But at the end of it all, you’ve got just one word that hits you- HER (or in some cases, HIM). In spite of all this, you still love that one person. That’s the way Love works! Love is irrevocable and unconditional and never ending.

Yes, I’m in Love! (A question most of you would want answered by now, I’m sure) As a matter of fact, I’m all over it (not just merely in Love)! I’ve seen so many relationships come up and break apart (and I still see many growing stronger…God bless them!). The most beautiful thing about Love is the tremendous faith it puts in you. You learn to accept everything Love throws at you with all your heart and you sow those seeds, nurture it, and let it grow into flowers that prove your love for that person. Sometimes, mortal feelings kick in, and throw you off track. But you get up, dust yourself, stick together the pieces of what’s left of your broken heart and Love again, with all you got.

The most unfair part of Love, is sacrifice. Sometimes, your Love may prosper better somewhere else, and the success of the love you have, is in letting go. This is the best kind of love there is. It is eternal. Timeless. People say that the greatest love stories are tragedies (Romeo-Juliet, Heer-Ranjha, Laila-Majnu, Shahjahan-Mumtaz). If you ask me, they’re kinda right. So, let go of the Love, let it prosper, let it spread far and wide, and you’ll be together again, some day. Keep faith, keep strong, and the Love you have can never be wrong!

Remember, at the end of the journey of Life, as you know it, you’ll have only those few moments, and Love is a major part of it- be it that one person, or your closest friends and family. So spend each moment of your Life wisely, and well.

Cheers!

P.S. To the one I love

I love you. Take care of my heart for me!